John P. Mallon Writer & Poet

The Wave
it was like a wave
pushed up
forced up
high
churning
smoothing
liquid energy beholding
from where it had come
in the moment
believing forms were final
surveying with disdain
the glisten and the swell
planning how things will be
daring dreams of darkness and light
of how it
is in the light
how it
belongs to the light
then the tilt and tip-over
the fall with a rage and a roar
back into the heavy silence of the heaving sea
Sneezed
I sneezed
BANG
BANG
BANG
I blew my nose
and dropped the tissue in the bin.
She stared at me.
Have you got it?
Are you dying?
Will I see you again?
I told her not to be silly
that it was only a cold
but she shook her head
and started to cry.
I haven’t seen her since.
One of us died in despair
and I’ve got a feeling
it wasn’t me.
The Wound
She sat where she was put
on the cold pavement
naked, clothes ripped off
crushed under a crowd of boots.
Knee to the side
arm across
she tried to talk
in a normal voice
and tell them
of the shopping needed
and the good inside.
They stood in day light clothes
debating, nodding, pointing, smiling
discussing how she should be killed.
A suited man
won the argument,
got a pat on the back.
Another, swatted her knee
and they all stared hard.
Waiting for the action to start,
the wound wept.
Go Back To Sleep
go back to sleep my love
please, go back to sleep
do not wake yet my love
stay where you are and dream
let the dreams come
I will imagine you laughing
I will imagine you brushing your hair
I will imagine you safe
Go back to sleep my love
please, go back to sleep
out here the surfaces are hard
the edges sharp
out here your voice your words your beauty
are not irreducible
out here you are only a thing
allowed to be what it is told to be
out here you are only a single fibre
in a plush carpet
waiting for the expensive heel to fall
go back to sleep my love
please go back to sleep
stay where you are a little longer my love
and let the dreams come
My Field
I placed my throne in the centre of it,
a deck chair, striped blue and white,
sagged into its curve relaxed.
The green field was mine now,
it belonged to me.
It was my green rectangle
and I sat at the centre of it,
beneath a blue, cloudless sky.
Flickering faces
stared through the railings newly installed,
gleaming like a row of polished knives.
I looked away with a smile
until a five-faced mob turned up
and began to shout
something about footpaths and public.
I shouted back ‘footpath kaput’, ‘field mine now’, ‘be off with you’
and laughed a hearty laugh.
They reached a crescendo,
eventually,
shook the fence
then disappeared.
I surveyed my property with a careful eye
and noticed growing things amongst the grass,
red things, yellow things, things with prickly tops.
I saw them growing in my soil,
using my soil,
making my soil their home.
I went to the nearest group
and stamped and stomped.
No No No.
This cannot be, I boomed.
This is mine.
This belongs to me.
You have no rights here.
I found a stick on the ground,
my stick on my ground,
and it became a vanquishing sword.
I stormed forward
swiping the red things, the yellow things and the things with the prickly tops.
In no time at all,
they had gone the way of the weak
since the beginning of time
since the primordial soup
since the dawn of civilisation.
I returned to my deck chair,
striped blue and white,
with a heavy breath and a heavy ponder
on the state of the grass,
my grass.
It was clumpy, sharp in places and thin in others.
It was not the kind of grass I wanted
in my field
and I decided it too must make the journey
all that which is no longer needed must make.
I would get a man in to spray the lot.
With feet outstretched,
a butterfly stopped on my shoe,
white and like delicate.
I examined it for a moment
then kicked it away.
I realised that on my soil,
on it,
within it,
under it
insects lurked
crawled
jumped
fucked
living a life at my expense.
They hadn’t asked for permission,
they hadn’t got an agreement,
rent or otherwise,
they hadn’t shown my ownership any due regard.
For their crimes beyond number
I resolved to bring in a man
who would sear and bleach this portion of the world,
my portion,
eradicating the squatters and stealers
and, for a small extra charge,
rake them out of the memory of this place, for ever.
This field would learn who’s boss,
who’s in control,
who it belonged to.
It belonged to me,
no one else,
and certainly not to itself, never to itself.
It was mine
and being mine
left no part over for anything else.
I sat back
satisfied with my plan
and raised my face to the sky.
Clouds, grey clouds,
were filling up the blue,
hanging over my field
blocking out my view.
A roof, I thought.
My field needs a roof
and I knew just the man
to help me realise my plan.